…on writing even if its to myself for now…sad tears roll down my cheeks as I reflect on my journey to wealth. Why sad tears? It is April 30th and I have once again failed to reach my monthly goal. My approach and activity were more than what I did in March. This month I engaged more in reaching out to people in order to share and obtain contact information so that I can set appointments. I also met mini goal to use part of my ‘chicken list’. March goal was to have an extra $300 cash. I met the goal by selling a mattress and box-spring set on Craigslist, hosting out -of -state guest who is now new friend for South X South West events. I also avoided by eating out and I received a surprising increase in my wifely allowance (thank you Deon). The sad news is only about $100 was actually saved. The tears roll slowly and the song came to my mind so off course I pull it up on You Tube.
Keep the dream alive by Yolanda Adams…I recall the first time I heard that song I was being taught to sing it by an Anglican High School classmate and neighbor. Kenesha Cobin was a song bird. She somehow believed that sweet Tameeka with a child like voice could sing…slowly she pronounced each word and let the sweet melody roll off her lips. All the while, I smiled and nodded. Paying close attention to her anointed sound and mouth posture, I knew there was no way I could sing like her or even come close…then finally I blurted out “girl singing is not my God-given gift!” We laughed. My tears stop now as I allow that same song to minister to me again. I enjoy writing perhaps its a gift. I can write all day long and I will some day…until then I WILL KEEP my dream alive and not give up. Yolanda Adams also sings Yet Still I Rise, never to give up, never to give in! Wow…this is just the beginning stages. I will set an even bigger goal for May and I will march forward then write about my accomplishment. God said 2016 is my GREAT YEAR, I need to change and focus. I will pray, work and not fret.
Wow it is 1:18am Saturday April 30th 2016 and I can clearly hear birds chirping outside. It is like a comforting code from God to remind me He is right here in the Midst of it all (another Yolanda Adams tune). Confession–my tears were also frustration that I failed myself and my family and lack of trust that my husband will be able to provide for my BIG DREAMS while having to support his…but that is a story for a different blog 🙂 We learn and teach about having emergency fund yet he is still an inveterate little saver because my check is little type of guy so when a driver ran into his car two days ago and did not stop, he was quite upset. Why? No money to fix the dent on front passenger side left by the inconsiderate hit and run driver as well as their lack of respect and decency to at least stop to evaluate damage…I will close with Yolanda’s ‘This too shall pass’ and thank you JESUS it was the car and not Deon. Access to a lawyer from Primerica legal protection makes $ense ya’ll!